not_me
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posted on 05-20-2004 at 08:17 |
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to all
Hi, I'm new here and I have a question for the group.
I've been gay friendly my entire life; my mother's best friend is a lesbian and she is my Godmother, so I was raised within the gay community (my mother is straight), and have gay friends.
I'm 29, and have only ever been involved with men. I've had two intense crushes on women, both when I was in my mid-20s, and had an opportunity to do something about it and have them be receptive (one was bi, one was bi-curious), but I always felt that even though I really dug them in a "romantic" way, I never could imagine myself actually having sex with them. Sexually, I've always identified myself as wholly heterosexual.
I've had only bad luck with men, and my current boyfriend is a loser (as most of them before him have been), and doesn't treat me very well, and I keep finding myself wondering if I should experiment with women. I really love lesbians, and I really want to find a partner who is attentive and who isn't afraid to be emotional, which I haven't found with any man. Typically, I haven't ever gotten along with straight women (their priorities are all out of whack), and being a large woman, most men won't even look at me, and those who do usually have severe issues or seem to be "settling" for me because I'm convenient.
I have women flirt with me quite a bit, and I know as a woman, we are far more tolerant of the esoteric as opposed to the aesthetic when it comes to whom we find attractive.
I guess my questions are: are there any other women out there who have gone through the same experience? How old were you? Are you happy now being a lesbian/bisexual? Were you able to easily overcome your fears of not being sexually adequate with a woman when you decided to take the plunge?
I figure you all would have good opinions and not be too judgmental. It is hard to find people to talk to sometimes, especially when you aren't exactly ready to let the people in your life know that you are having this mental struggle, lest they make assumptions or try too hard to help you out. I'm really just trying to figure out how I feel about things, and would really appreciate reading your thoughts.
Thanks. :)
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patty78
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posted on 06-20-2004 at 11:32 |
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not_me,
I am currently 25, I have been out for about 3 years, I thought about my whole life, always found myself closer to women than men but in my family there was not way. I really started thinking about in when I joined the navy, still hadn't tried it yet, I dated this guy Bill on and off for about three years one day I asked him if he wanted to have a baby but I did not want to marry him. I got out of the navy in 2000 came to Mississippi thinking to go ahead and marry Bill, but then it happened I met Amy twice my age but took my breath away, after spending one night with her I knew a man could never compare to what went on that night. That opened the door for my best friend Stephanie to tell me she had feelings for me, we have been together ever since, other than my son, I tell you I have never loved another this much in all of my life. Just keep an open mind and go with the flow.
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